Monday, March 14, 2011

Changing Direction

I have not posted a blog in a while. I am not even sure if the things I write would qualify as a "blog." Perhaps this is more of an online journal. My mind is unbalanced as of late. Today I am going to look into an intensive outpatient program through a local hospital. I feel overwhelmed with life and completely unable to cope.

In August of 2010 I came to believe in God, the almighty creator of the universe. In September I began to attend a non-denominational Christian church. I began to really learn about the bible and Jesus. I love everything I have learned about Jesus and I want to devote my life to living as He instructed. I am also interested in Buddha. I have really been struggling with religion and people. I think a lot of Christians misinterpret the bible and their misinterpretations leave me feeling like I would rather get to know God on my own. Many Christians seem so judgmental and unloving and freely express their opinions on who is going to eternal hell and who is going to heaven. I think so many have misunderstood the bible and Jesus and I want to research this further. In the meantime, I am going to continue to pray for God to soften my heart towards people that annoy me. I don't want people to keep me from learning about the bible by attending church. Clearly I need to pray more...

I am also thinking about the people of Japan who have suffered terrible loss after the earthquake and tsunami. My thoughts are with them.

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